The experimental portrait was the first project of my Junior year. The goal of this project was to create an image that causes a visceral reaction. Some challenges of this assignment is that our images had to include a randomly assigned model, and we weren’t allowed to photoshop the final product. Additionally, we were working with limited resources due to COVID-19 restrictions. But these limitations pushed me to be more creative, further developing my problem solving skills. My concept was heavily based around how I was feeling at the time: everything was changing, the future was uncertain, and I felt a strange disconnect between my present self and my past self. I wanted to create an image that was just as confusing and nostalgic as how I felt. Later on, the image was adapted as a book cover for Helena Fox’s, How It Feels to Float.


Since I’m a commuter living at home, I was able to dig through all of my baby bins that my mom had packed away years ago. Seeing my childhood artifacts brought me a lot of inspiration, so I decided to recreate my childhood bedroom in the forest behind my house. Everyday, for two weeks, I carried my bed, paintings, chairs, and knick knacks into the woods, hoping to capture that perfect dream-like moment. And with the help of my dad, I was able to hang paintings 50 feet in the air, adding another layer of depth to the image. I pushed the childhood concept even further by dressing my model as a little girl. I wanted her to look as small as possible, so I crafted an enormous hair bow and experimented with low camera angles. The end result allowed the viewer to feel as though they had just opened the door to a strange bedroom, feeling just as lost as I did.